Getaway

I really need to get away right now. Everything is making me angry. I love being with them but sometimes I get so pissed off. I can take a joke no problem, but I swear recently it's like "Hey, let's throw salt in all of your open wounds, and then laugh it off." I don't know. It just seems like he has been making it a point to be a jerk to me. I know he doesn't do it on purpose, or at least I hope not. I think it may be that he just doesn't know what gets to me. So when he does touch on something that actually hurts me, he doesn't know it. Then with her...I don't really know. I think it's more that I don't want to bring her in the middle of it so I'm refusing to let myself talk about it.

I feel like I'm probably making to big of a deal about this, but I know that if I don't deal with it. I'll end up pushing myself away from them. I can already feel it happening. I don't think they've noticed yet though so maybe I can fix myself before they notice something's wrong.