Independent

I find myself to be a very independent person. I don't really rely on much of anyone for really much of anything. The only times I have, something has happened to crush my faith in them. So it just goes to show that there really is no reason that I should put any sort of dependence factor into my relationships. That means any type of relationship. The one I have with my parents, with a lover, with a friend, etc. No matter what, something ALWAYS happens between us to completely destroy my image of them if I put some sort of dependence in the mix. That's why I don't particularly enjoy closed relationships, I don't like the idea of going to my parents house and allowing my mother to fawn on me the entire time, and I hate it when I let myself need a friend and then they turn around and ruin it for me. I simply can't let my guard down that much.

Don't take this the wrong way, I am not quite as cynical as this may make me sound. I have a lot of fun in my life, I enjoy people's company and closeness to some extent. If someone relies on me, I respect that and try to uphold that trust to the best of my ability. I just don't want them to be offended when I don't return the same sentiments. Oh well.