Emotions

Emotions man fucking emotions. Make everything fucking worse. 2 years,working on it 1 year and a half into therapy and its like I haven't bugged man!!!
Like I just wanna make progress. I wanna stop making things worse with words. I just wanna heal and stay healed but nooooooo!!!! More shit comes. More wounds come. More emotions pour. How the fuck can people deal with these things? Am I fucking weak.?Am I fucking crazy!!?? Am I beyond fixing?? It feels like it man. I don't wanna give up but I'm tired grandpa.... I know its just too fucking bad.....

I've buried my emotions from a lost love for 4 years. I thought I was ok, but I realize she was the one.

I've noticed my life has changed with how I feel, not where I'm at.