Butishouldnt

I keep thinking "I love her/but I shouldn't" and I don't know why. Because, who is that call-and-response douchebag inside my head to say I shouldn't love someone! Fuck him, fucking defense mechanism to make sure I am always afraid. Neophobe! I don't need to be afraid. And I don't want to be afraid. Yellow ghost, you only exist in my head.