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What keeps me here? What keeps crawling inside my brain that makes me keep going. I keep thinking. I keep breathing. But i just want to keep myself under control. Its kind of insane really i am an animal who forcefully uncaged herself, only to want to be caged in her own way. And this whole thing is selfish of me because all i do is talk about myself and issues on this thing. And i am aware no one looks at them but it just feels so good to put it out there. And i want to tell my friends. And i want them to use this tool aswell. However if they read my thoughts. Im not entirely sure how well anything will go. But no matter what for some reason i keep holding back. I just want to keep myself contained. I keep wanting to unleash everything. But i cant. And i keep thinking about the people in my life. And i wonder who the fuck is actually there for me? Or am i uspossed to be alone and just have allies rather than actual friends?

What keeps me here? What keeps crawling inside my brain that makes me keep going. I keep thinking. I keep breathing. But i just want to keep myself under control. Its kind of insane really i am an animal who forcefully uncaged herself, only to want to be caged in her own way. And this whole thing is selfish of me because all i do is talk about myself and issues on this thing. And i am aware no one looks at them but it just feels so good to put it out there. And i want to tell my friends. And i want them to use this tool aswell. However if they read my thoughts. Im not entirely sure how well anything will go. But no matter what for some reason i keep holding back. I just want to keep myself contained. I keep wanting to unleash everything. But i cant. And i keep thinking about the people in my life. And i wonder who the fuck is actually there for me? Or am i uspossed to be alone and just have allies rather than actual friends?