Confessional

I have something to confess, it's the only secret I've ever kept... because there is no solid evidence, and it could be warped to mean something else...

he had an awfully keen sense to stay away, he had an awfully keen sense something was wrong/ had gone wrong. He had an awfully awkward time touching me again...

he should have, I miscarried his child.

Looking back it's the only explaination.