Suppress

So last night I did a bit of meditating and I was able to take everything I was feeling for him and pack it into a neat little ball so I wouldn't have to deal with it. Granted, this is not the best way to handle my emotions, but at least now I can function during the day without thinking about him. Plus, this is better for both of us anyway. He isn't ready for anything and I need to get myself under control. Don't get me wrong I still like him, it's just that now, I can control it better. I guess if he was ever ready for something I'd be willing to unpack those emotions, but until then oh well, and if nothing ever happens, then I'll be ok with that too.