Pattern

Seeing as she's my best friend, I told her everything that happened. I could tell she had something to say, but she didn't want to in order to spare my feelings. Finally, i got it out of her. This is what she said:

"I don't know. I feel like that's his pattern. He kind of told me the same thing; that we'd just be best friends. And I didn't want to. I wanted more."

This thought had passed through my head, but until she said it out loud, it hadn't become real. Now, it is very real. I have to wonder, is what happened with me any different than what happen with her.

There's a part of me that's saying "yes, it was different" , and another part that's screaming "no, it was exactly the same thing."

Oh well. What difference does it make, anyway?