Spinning

my head is spinning. i woke up and i missed her so much. yesterday that woman showed me that i am not just someone she wants to sleep with . she actually wants to love me. what on earth am i to do about this? so today i am going to sit here, in my room with the green walls and pink bedspread, i am going to read a book, going to take a long bath, i am going to do anything and everything but worry about how wonderful this could be. because if she decides she doesnt really mean it, i dont want to have set my hopes to high. and now i have to go because my puppy needs to go for a walk and the sun is shining. maybe i will think about it a little after all...