Secure

Security is feeling like your loved ones aren't constantly in possible danger because of a choice you made years ago. It's not thinking that your downstairs neighbors/friends will have their door knocked down because someone thinks you're still the one living there. Security is not feeling like everyone around you is constantly in slightly more danger than they would be if they didn't know you. Fuck this feeling. With time I've come to regret not finishing my action, but I know that would have probably made things worse. If I'd completed what I'd started, maybe I'd feel I'm more deserving of the terror these people bring me.