Polylife

Mannnnn...... tge polylife has both been rewarding and stressful since my partner started dating another. Like I thought the adjustment would be easy. Like I already knew what I was in for but wasn't prepared to actually feel envy and jealously. Me and them have struggled the whole time with money, shelter, and even being able to do cool things we want to do. In comes this dude, acting like a sugar daddy, gifting them some many books, clothes, conventions and events. The harder part is I tend to really be considerate of dudes time and feelings, i dont wanna do anything that gets in the way of their time and relationship. I found out he doesn't feel the same. He doesn't care about my feelings at all. It apparently feeds his "gen x" ego when he found out I was jealous and envious. Red flags for me not my partner though. So as I sit back and hope for the best..... polylife is being one of the hardest things I've done since kicking dope and cutting out toxicity.