Timing

How is it that someone can make me so incredibly excited to see them? We're never apart for long but I'm always looking forward to seeing him again. I'm shocked that for once in my life, the timing worked out for something to happen between myself and a person of intrigue. Usually something is always wrong at the time when things are available.

Now thing are accelerating rather quickly. I don't know how I feel anymore. Lying in bed, preparing to go to sleep, he reaches for my pants and I said no, not yet. Things cannot go that fast, I think that would ruin it. But at the same time it was exhilarating that he would be so forward. I had almost gotten used to the passive, cute way that he approaches things so it was shocking to see and experience that.

I guess I need to figure things out on my end so we can move forward. I honestly don't remember what is holding me back.