Clean

I spent a good portion of today cleaning a good friend of mine's house.... She was very glad for the help so I also cooked. Now I'm back in my room...looking at the terrible mess that exists within my room and wishing very much that I had the morale to continue cleaning and working. I just feel as though I need to clean my head out, to vent about everything for a little while.... EVERYTHING, not the watered down version to prevent peoples feelings from being hurt but the core image of it all... the final piece of the puzzle, the last layer before I'm exposed.... I want to see him and talk to him it's almost like being teased since I saw him the other day but now I'm lost again. I think I'll clean my desk and maybe then I'll feel better