Help

I need help, but I don't know how or who to ask.

I tried my friends and family. They either don't understand or don't want to.

I don't trust 'professionals' to truly care about my issues. They wouldn't be doing it if they weren't going to be paid.

I guess a big part of the problem is that I feel like I know quite a bit of information that a majority of people aren't privy to. How could they possibly help if they don't understand?

^The logical thing to do would be to explain the information I'm referring to, but somewhere along the line every one gets to the same point... "Yeah... you're just making this out to be more than it is." "It is what it is."

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If it weren't for my kid, I would most likely be dead right now. She is literally the light of my life. I'm not with the mother any more. All I do is work 5-6 days a week (sometimes doubles) so that I can pay for child support, along with anything else she needs. I don't want to be a deadbeat dad. I want to be her hero. It's just hard when I, as a human being, am forced into slave labor to such an extent that I have to trade spending time with my daughter for supporting her.... I dunno, maybe I'm just in the wrong line of work or something, but it's hard to find a job when all you do is work.

I don't mean to complain. I know so many folks have it way worse. I kind of just hope that somehow, by writing this, enough of the right energy might get to the right places and help will come. It doesn't hurt to dream.. :/

Nothing I do is a cry for help. There won't be a cry for help. I don't need any help. This is a decision left up to me. Yes or no. And I am fully capable of making it without anyone else's interference. The idea of getting help doesn't make sense.

Why has it started to sicken me to help people? Is everyone so useless these days that they can't help themselves to mundane things? Why should I kill myself over helping someone who will then ignore me once they don't need me?