I think I finally understand how Gollum from Lord of the Rings must have felt when his two personalities were arguing.
Part of me wants to ask what I did wrong, what I can do to fix things. That part of me wants us all to be friends again.
Then another part of me could care less, thinks that I was always too good for the friendship. That part of me wants to just start yelling at her.
I think the violent side is beating the submissive side at the moment, and I'm not sure if I even think that is a bad thing anymore.