Identity

i'm the biggest carbon copy of my friends, and of anyone i generally admire.

i think i'm finally finding myself.

i don't have to mirror you to be me, especially since it doesn't make me happy anymore.

hello, me.

I plagiarized my friend J's identity, mannerisms, and even her boyfriend because she had a presence that I wanted badly. I once explained her to someone like this: "When she talks to you it's like you are as special as she is."

A different friend told me the other day... "When you look at me that way," [I was just kind of staring at her, you see] "I feel special."

I have no authentic self but at least people pay attention to me.