Butch

I'm sick of not being taken seriously. I've been working out and dieting steadily since December. I lift weights 3 times a week. I haven't missed a day yet. Yet people still seem to be incapable of following this to its logical conclusion.

My boyfriend told me yesterday that he was proud of how well I was doing, but that he'd dump me if I "got butch." I wish he'd said this in public, just to see how everyone who'd known me longer than 6 months would laugh at him. I don't think I've ever been mistaken for someone feminine, and I think that the only thing that bothered me about his statement was that it meant he thought I wasn't butch already.

I'd like to say here and now that it is my greatest ambition to become as "butch" as I can possibly be. When I am done, I will have hard thighs and visible abs. I don't care what this does to my breasts. I will continue to wear baggy jeans and wifebeaters. I will continue to define myself by my strength. And if I tire of my long hair, I will hack it off. And if this makes me single for the rest of my life, I don't give a damn.

Anyone who wants to see me stay fat or weak or long-haired to fulfill their own sexual preferences isn't worthy of my time.