Married

For the last four years I have dated a much older married man. Is it the right thing to do? I know it is not. Do I care? Not really. When I say much older I mean like 24 years older. I have never once been disrespectful to him or his situation at home. In four years there have been some ups and downs. One thing he has always done is showed up. If he gives me his word he sticks to it. He has made my life so simple and easy. If I need to talk I call him. If I need to vent I call him. If I need anything at all I call him. He has taught me what it truly means to show up for someone and love them no matter what. In the back of my mind I think what if you didnt have him???? He is getting older especially now. I think about it several times a day. The only thing I have been really upset about is him going on vacation. It happens every single year around this time. It isnt that he is on vacation with her. It is he isnt a phone call away and I dont like it at all!!!! He just returned from a fucking ten day hiatus in October. I told him no more ten day vacations. Seven is fine but 10 is a no. Yesterday he came over and I could tell he was acting funny........this dude is going on a 3 month vacation. I am not even sure I care at this point! Maybe this is a good time to move on for both of us.