Vacation

This time last year I was headed on a once in a lifetime dream vacation or so I thought. I went to Aruba with 3 friends and one of them brought their adult children with them. It is amazing and if you haven't been and get the chance to go, do it! Two of my friends are Elizabeth and Edward and they are married. My friend Eugenia brought her children and their significant others. Elizabeth and I thought we were going to a 50th birthday celebration but we were mistaken. Her daughters boyfriend was going to propose on the third night we were there. It immediately turned into the newly engaged daughters vacation. In fact, before we left she was heated that Elizabeth had bought a decoy wedding ring (she was scared to lose hers) because it was going to be just like her daughters she just went on and on until I said if you dont want her to wear it talk to her not me. Elizabeth and I were like ok but we forgot about it and went on our way.

The day before we left we had nail appointments and then would be going on to stay at a hotel near the airport. That is when the bitching started was at the nail salon. It was so bad I went to the car. I know how she can get. I can remember thinking please do not let this be any indicator of how the trip is going to be. Well it was. She forgot that we were also on vacation. I was ok with going places but I was also ok with relaxing right out our back door on the beach. We weren't given much of a choice to do it her daughters way since she took charge of the entire vacation and her mom let her.

When we went to the beach I told her I would have to sit in the car to take a phone call and it was important otherwise if I was on the beach I had no phone service. Apparently that upset her. She came to my room that night and was an entire bitch asking me if Elizabeth was in my room, I must of have the strangest look on my face because she said well is she. She was upset that Elizabeth took the wrong room but would not say anything to her about it. Honestly, she acted like a child and it is very embarrassing to me to even say that a 50 year old woman was mad because I was spending too much time with our friend, Elizabeth. On the flight home she backed me into a corner by asking me very rude how long I had been hanging out at their (Elizabeth and Edward) house. I said I haven't. She told me yes you have and I caught myself pleading with her and it immediately took me back to a time I wasn't wanting to revisit ever. Pleading with my ex that I didn't do this or that. So I snapped and said you wonder why your husband left this is why. The accusations are out of control. That was what really did it for me. I thought to myself anyone that can take a beautiful vacation and turn it into a near fist fight on an airplane is a special kind of dumb bitch! She was thinking in her warped brain.........I really do not know what she was thinking and honestly I don't even care. I have never in my life been so embarrassed because once we got off the plane at our layover she continued there too. I even tried to forgive her, but these delusional outbursts continued on and on for about 9 more months. I finally said I am done. You are disturbing my peace because you have none. She has gone and told her family that I turned my back on her and I am totally fine with being the bad guy as long as she stays all the way away from me forever. Lesson learned no more vacations with people like her. If someone is disrupting your peace it is totally fine to walk away!

Here's what I learned on my summer vacation:

I look to other people to solve my problems. I am constantly searching for someone to express myself to, or a means of expressing myself to the people in my life. I look for problems and when there aren't any I create them.

I wouldn't exactly call this a crisis, but I don't know how to just start over so it's pretty close. I don't really wanna think about it right now.

I need a goddamned vacation, but I don't feel like I've earned one yet.