Questions

I have so many questions left unanswered. I fell like the ether is my only outlet. The only place that understands my need to express my feelings. It doesn't judge me, or my feelings. It doesn't patronize me, degrade me, or mock my emotions.

I'm tired of people telling me to get over it. Don't throw negativity at me, just listen and discuss with me. Don't shrug it off and bad mouth him, that's not what I want.

I'm stuck between losing family members, or following what my heart tells me I want to do. I'm so conflicted.

I just want to start brand new... New town. New friends. New life. Pretend nothing ever happened. Pretend that we have always been a happy, healthy couple.

Maybe it's time for a change of scenery.

Can I really do this? Will I make it? Will my son be okay? What if my nightmares come true? How did my life end up here? Why can't it be the way it use to be? Do I still love him? Why can't I stop thinking???