Adjusting

Last three years have been filled with new adjustments and habits, to the point of obsession and overload. Adjusting to life without drugs and over consumption of alcohol anlong with polyamory, couch surfing, being loved by a partner, money struggles, and countless other things all at once has just been rough and draining. I just wanna enjoy life a grow into a better person. I wanna be someone worth being around and staying around. So far this year alone I've lost most of my friends, because of my difficulties adjusting. I've even almost lost my partner do to my mental struggles and hard time adjusting to them dating someone whose not only way older than both of us but way more financially secure and mentally put together. Adjusting to that while struggling like we have been has been one of the roughest. If I lose them, it'll be even harder to adjust to this new life. I hope it gets easier from here. However, I understand hard work never ends. Life never stops throwing new adjustments at us. I guess now is time I learn how tough i really am.