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in the game of jokey insults that seems to characterise friendship, you'll play as hard as anybody, but when they sling one at you it stings, even though you know they don't mean it. you get a little defensive, and that's what she hates.
I do it too. kinda. I don't play rough except with my closest few, I'm terrible at insulting people. so for the most part nobody gives me any, but when they do it stings. even though I know they're just being friendly. and instead of getting defensive like you do, I shrink and smile apologetically like a kicked dog, and they feel awkward and say 'hey I don't mean that you know' and of course I know that, but they've already made the mental note that I'm too fragile to play with, and I assume she hates this in me too.
I've thought about showing you this place. but it's so personal for me, maybe you'd see something you don't like and I'd be on my own again. I don't know if you're ready to see my paranoia in all its horrible insecure glory. if you ever will be, if I could ever do that to you.