Loathe

I absolutely loathe your existance. I cannot stand to be in the same room with you for five fucking seconds. I find you to be pathetic and wimpy, a loser amoung your gender. You expect my world to revolve around you, and it won't. Never has and I refuse to start that trend. I don't need someon else in my life to make my world go round. That's what I'm here for. I'm perfectly happy in my own little world. In fact, I find myself more happy without you in my world. But I still just cannot let you go. Is it because you FINALLY did something for this family? Am I so lame that I don' want to leave you because I know it will hurt you? It's getting to the point where I no longer care. You distract me from the great things I can achieve in my life. You suck away my happiness, my creativity, my love and my spirit. I've never in my life felt so beat down by anyone more than you. You have come the aboslute closest to breaking my spirit fully. Your "supirses" are done for you, not me. You keep tabs on me, probably even spy on me. For someone so untrusting, I wonder what you're doing behind my back. You're pathetic. I cannot stand the sight of you.