Foolish

I'm so tired of being hurt. Falling for someone, letting them in, only to be let down time and time again. I'm tired of always being the one to care when no one else wants to. Am I just drawn to men who will inevitably let me down?

I'm so tired of crying. Of feeling I can trust only to end up damaged in the end. I don't know what I've done to deserve all this. No one will tell me. I'm tired of feeling angry one second, and 20 variations of sad the next.

Am I really still the only one who wants my relationship to work? Am I really that foolish to be able to hold on to hope?

I haven't been able to eat, to sleep, to be around anyone. I just want you. Despite everything, I just want you. I miss your touch, your smell, your voice... I'm so broken right now, I can't believe I'm still willing to do this to myself.