Neverhaveiever

I played this game for the first time tonight, and let me tell you, it can be an emotional rollercoaster. We went from goofy, to gross, to depressed, and out the other side of depressed to silly again. I thought I wouldn't get a chance to drink much, but with all the silly things they came up with, I wasn't completely left out. I don't know how to explain it, but it made everyone feel connected and disconnected at the same time. Whether we were all drunk or just pretending to be drunk, things were off the wall. We were all goofing around, hitting on each other, semi-cuddling, all that stuff that should make us feel closer, but it made me feel like some walls were put up even firmer, just to make sure things stayed separate in some way. So lines weren't crossed.

I find more and more I'm the background listener...I didn't really tell any stories, though I heard plenty. I hear both sides of the story, but I don't really stand up for either. I just kind of float around wherever people let me be... and some part of me is always afraid I'm intruding. You'd think a game like this would be good for getting to know people, but in some way, I don't think it did. It let me know what they've done in the past... and also in some way reminded me how little I know them. I feel sad that I won't get much longer with these people before we all head our separate ways. I was just starting to get used to these people, and soon I'll have to go out into the world... and I'm so awkward when meeting new people too.

Sigh

Never have I ever posted something on the internet that DIDN'T sound emo in some way.

Gaddangit. The internet is the only place I get to vent. It's like yelling into a long tube, where maybe someone will hear, and maybe someone won't, but it doesn't really matter, cause it gets said, and it makes me feel better.