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I've been feeling really depressed despite how much joy I feel for moving into my new place and away from everything that drove me absolutely batshit. I don't know. It's really a lot worse because I have no one to talk to about anything, yet. I just kind of feel lonely. One of my friends who is at a different university feels the same way and i don't want to tell her how I feel because then it's almost as though it makes it more real. I love my school, I love the people here, I love the place I live and the perks I have living here. But, more than anything, I miss my friends. I miss my life. I miss knowing that when shit hit the fan in my life there was some one to turn to that was right there. I don't like calling my friends and sounding whiney but it's almost come to that. I just feel so out of place sometimes and I really hope that gets better. Over all I seem to be making great progress but at the same time, and it might just be the change in season, my depression is beginning to interfere with my life. I just kinda want a hug from someone I've known longer than the past few weeks. I want to go visit my darlings but I don't want to leave before fall break and I have a lot to do in the next two weeks. Damn it.I just kinda don't want to feel this way I guess. I.... I don't know. I could really go for a good old fashion walk with someone and just listen to them talk for a while and then maybe I'd feel better.