Circles
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It's funny how sometimes life works in circles.
The new girl is now officially in a relationship. Not with me. All my relationship-attempts seem to end like that. Circles.
The girl from years ago that I was obsessed with for nearly a half-decade... she talked to me online tonight and tried to console me about the above.
...She has the power to make me fall for her again and again, even though I can never have her.
This time, though, she made some weird comments that I need to reflect on, saying that she's always meant to tell me. Saying that i'm better off alone. That a girl could tie me down from reaching my dreams, saying that out of anyone she knew, she thought I would be the one to actually make it somewhere. Then she made a weird comment that could have implied that if it weren't for that, she would be here, with me, right now.
Relationships in general are like that. I love you, I hate you, I love you again. It’s never ending and there is no light at the end of the tunnel. It’s what we do we walk in circles blindly and wonder what the fuck went wrong and how the fuck we ended back where we started. I suppose it’s human nature. We just have to grin and bear it and hope that the next time we might just walk ourselves into oblivion. At least that’s what I’m aiming for.