- 2 thoughts
- Log in to add a thought
It's a funny thing how we as adults have the ability to make our fair share of choices in life. We make these based on the likelihood that a favorable outcome should come as a direct result. Life, however, is the master of pitching curveballs.
I find myself in a place I never thought I'd be. Resentful, bitter, feeling lost, alone, and as if I've failed- yet I haven't. I have been everything that I would hope someone would be to me, but still it's not quite good enough. I have shown the utmost loyalty and concern for friends who I thought would do the same, but in return, I have found I've lost them all.
In the most recent case, almost a year to the day from the last, the experience has left me a cold shell of apathetic waste. Isolating myself so no one who truly knows me can pick up the stench of despair emanating from me as a whole. I try to tell myself, "You're doing all you can, just keep on!" I feel like no matter what my best looks like though, it's never enough. Everyone always finds a better- whatever. Sister, daughter, girlfriend, friend, it doesn't much matter...I feel replaced by every single person I held close to me.