Safenow

I just had a moment in real time, it was top three best feelings of my life. I came into my work area and there was a lot going on in other areas of the manufacturing facility (prior to now.) That is when I noticed a beautiful older lady and one of her grandaughters walking with her. I immediately knew it was Barbara. She is still the same Barbara I met in elementary school. I got on to the elevator and knew the feeling I just had prior to entering Monroe St. was valid. I got off the elevator and immediately sat down be able to experience such a beautiful and wonderful feeling over again, yet in a different way. It was another full circle moment along with the same feeling I have previously desccribed by "get your life together lady" except this time, it was a stronger urge and feeling. I want to say not quite as subtle. I have had it before. It seems to get stronger each time. I did make an effort to do things for the sake of doing them. It helps! That is why I was able to experience the feeling I just had. I came in and I stopped and looked around and took it all in!

This time last year I was torn but only because I was listening to others meaning my dang dad! UhHHHHHHH!!!!! I was pissed at him but I can say he knew it and he heard it in the snap of my voice last Christmas Eve. I know this but it pisses me off still. Anyway, I took that moment to breathe and look at things from an entire different perspective. Be proud of myself and just take in the moment. Behind closed doors I had a moment and I cried but that different kind of cry. It is real it is raw and its emotional but in an entirely different way. I want to say level. A different form of communication? I then had the safest feeling come over me. Like a warm hug from strong arms. It was the perfect balance between hold and hug. I feel safe. I am not sure I have been able to say that in a while. I don't feel unsafe rather one of those I have to have my guard up for reasons beyond my control. However, as previously stated I got the feeling that said keep going you've got this..................my final thought, out loud was "yea right, lol lol who" If you are reading my thoughts you know! I also think that could be a phenomenal thing if you are!