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A girl I had a crush for a while is getting married. It's not that it bothers me, or makes me jealous or even gives me a "what if?" type of feeling, because it honestly doesn't. It just freaks me out that she's getting married, is all. I mean I certainly am not calling her out, she's a big girl now, she can make her own decisions. I guess it just creeps me out that real people, who I am attracted to, are getting married. I guess them growing up means I'm growing up? Or something like that? The thought of all of us getting old frankly terrifies me. I am nineteen, but I associate heavily with people in their early-mid twenties. Sure I have my "younger" friends too, but they are mostly high school seniors. So they'll be in college in a few months. Everyone's growing up. Everyone's changing. I've built a world around myself over the past couple years. It's about to crash all over my neophobic ass.
Yesterday I found out one of my old friends was engaged, and I must admit that it makes me sad. I really don't think his girl is good for him. She's the reason that he and I don't talk anymore, because she got jealous even though we were never actually around each other. She made him stop doing things that he loved, things that I liked about him. And they fight all the time.