Wakingup

This morning when I woke up I was irritated af! I knew I had a lot to do. I was mainly irritated because I had something that I had planned the first time it was cancelled so this time I really worked hard to market etc etc. Really what was bothering me the most was the fact where I have a studio they are supposed to promote me my work and every other person that is trying to accomplish something. The fact they pick and choose and tell bold faced lies is a good indicator of the turn over rate in the past. Then I quickly thought to myself, if she is waiting for me to ask she better hold her breath. I made it VERY clear in March how much this meant to me and she gave me her word. Again fuck her that is on her not me.

I went ahead and came in I was not prepared like normal because nobody even signed up this time. However, when you promote a place day in and out and they dont return the favor, I just feel like it isnt a good look for anyone. So watch that cease on my part. I had a lady come in around 1245 who has attended everything I have hosted since I have been doing this on my own about a year now. I told her we needed a change of scenery. As she began I could see she was trying very hard to concentrate and do a good job. As I gave her more suggestions she really began to focus and do things without asking me. I could feel myself starting to unwind.

I mentioned she has came to all of my classes what I did not mention is that she walks to all of them as well. Half way through I thought this is great I have been able to take my time and actually rest for a few. Decompress, if you will. Believe me I needed it. I heard a knock on the door and I go down to open it and it is another lady I met along this most recent journey. She just needed someone to talk to. Actually they both did. The second lady left about 10 minutes after she arrived she left but not before hugging me telling me I am an inspiration to her. I sat back down with the first lady and we talked some more. What I know is she has had a tough life. A really rough way to go. How dare I think I need to sell out.......which I did because of the money but what I gained today was worth a lot more than money. I was able to sit and instruct someone in a calm stress free environment. I was also able to hear her cries and frustrations. I listened and gave my thoughts and any advice I could. She needed that and I was glad to be her sounding board. She has been and extremely loyal customer. I mean she walks here from Walnut and I take her home every single time. When I dropped her off my heart was so full. To be continued.........I will share the best part soon!