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I've been having dreams in what I can best describe as miniseries. Sometimes I'll have repetitive dreams about having therapeutic conversations with people from my childhood, one at a time, about five of them in a row. They're short and simple. Each person will ask me a few questions about some part of my childhood that happened when they were part of my life, I'll babble at length about my feelings about that, and then the scenery will change and they'll fade away into the next person.
The other recurrent dream miniseries has been one where I ask my close friends and current and former lovers to kill me in different ways. Last night were 6 short dreams where I convinced my boyfriend again and again to kill me.
He looked down, sighed, and pulled the trigger. The gun was tilted to the side, so it took off my nose, an eye, and several other parts of my face. I was still breathing and squirming until he reloaded and pulled the trigger again.
By the last dream, he understood how it would play out, and when I pulled him to an abandoned pool with me at two in the morning and told him that I needed to die, he slammed my head into the concrete until I was unconscious and then held me under water for hours. He sat on the submerged steps into the pool, holding me under by the hair long after I was dead. My third person self was distressed that he still had his boots on, which were undoubtedly getting soaked, and that his black pants would be bleached from the chlorine.