View Thinker #fa610b's profile thought 16 years, 2 months ago...

I have become a complex puzzle…even to myself. I have been taken apart, and I’m not sure if I can be pieced together again. I accepted things just fine, but then you happened. You have stripped me of my armor, Leaving me defenseless from falling for you.

I feel as if I know you better than Anyone ever has or ever will. I can’t explain it, but there’s something So great inside of you that one day I wish you’d share with me.

All that you know of me is what I have shown you. I want you to get to know the real me… The me that fell for you when You got closer than I anticipated.

I’m not as strong as you think I am. My heart is still recovering.
I’m still drying my tears… Getting over my own fears. You have conquered my heart with ease. I know you’re not perfect, But you seem to be what I want. I’m giving you everything… I’m giving you all of me.

I know how you make me feel, But at the same time, I don’t. I don’t know if I love you, Or simply the idea of you in my life. I look into your eyes and see hope, joy, peace, loveEverything that I have been longing for. You have captivated me with your inner light.

It’s wrong for us to be half alive… Half of ourselves.
You complete me. All of my life, I’ve been searching For someone to find me. Everything I have with you is what I’ve always wanted. Like a match, You have ignited my heart.
Your actions make the Flame glow brighter.

I believe you were placed In my life for a reason. I look at you and see innocence; You haven’t been tainted by others; You’re simply you. I feel safe when I’m with you, And when I’m not, You’re always on my mind.

I put you before myself. You mean that much to me.
I’d do whatever it takes to make you happy. I’d be more than willing to give you my world.

From the moment I met you, Not a day has gone by when I haven’t thought of you. And whenever I’m with you… I’m in agony.
The closer I get to you, The worse it gets. The thought of not being with youI can’t breathe.

We are so close, yet we are stars apart. But what if all we have is a dream? An illusion created by the both of us?
Maybe it’s better living in an Illusion than in the truth; However, illusions, once shattered, Make the truth harder to bear.

I am tired of being full of doubt. I have tried so hard to see the truth, But my heart rejects it. I don’t want to be lonely no more.
I don’t want to feel empty no more.

The ball is in your court. You need to make a choice. I’m a patient person, But I can only wait for so long, And I don’t want to give up on you. I want to wait for you, But I don’t want to be dragged through the mud.

I feel as though you’re leading Me down a path I can’t take. In my mind, you’re straddling that line, And I wish you would just pick a side. I am experiencing an overload of emotions, And I don’t know how long I can contain it. Day by day, my feelings for you evolve, And I’m kind of afraid of this process. They are changing too fast for me to control.

I don’t know exactly how I feel about you. I know that I love you, but the level of Love is questionable at the moment; My heart is undecided.

I have become too dependent On you to the point where I can’t survive without you. And this scares me because I never get too emotionally attached.

My mind and heart are at enmity with each other; My mind has been playing tricks, And my heart has betrayed me. There is a constant battle between the two, And I don’t know which will be the victor; Both are delicate and unstable, Making it an unending conflict.

Everything I thought I knew has come to an end. You are a mystery I cannot figure out. I want to know the real you, Not the you that I have created.
I want you to give me the truth, So I can be delivered from you.

I have never felt this way before.
My emotions are jumbled. I need to get over this.
I can’t keep thinking about youIt is too painful. Please end my inner struggle.

I now realize you and I can never be. I want so bad what I can’t have. I want to hold onto you, but I can’t.
I feel as if I’m losing you.

I buried my past before I met you… But you’ve brought to the surface things long forgotten. The way I was…the things I did… Things that best belong in the dark. That guy….the guy I used to be…he’s long gone. I’ve kissed him goodnight. It’s a new me.

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