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I'm so tired of disrespectful bullshit! It's like the world decided this week, I'm getting tested and my test is people crossing boundaries and being disrespectful beyond belief. I don't like that you're still dating the guy who put his hands on me, but ALSO went out of his way to send me some dumbass shit of you two together. I fucking hate it. I don't like him, nor do I want anything to do with his horrible actions!! He shouldn't be so fucked up that he causing trouble. Why do you want to be with him?! What about him is so great and necessary to your life?
What ever happened to family? Sticking together? Being there for each other through thick and thin?? I guess we say fuck that, and disregard your own family member's feelings. It just makes me wanna cry.
The friend is okay, he's barely drinking. Then some bitch who is always drunk comes in and is going to call me strange. And the other fuck from another hall who hates me is going to be playing video games with them all.
And then I don't have to do ANYTHING. I'm done with them. Never have to room with them again. I thought I might be making the wrong move rooming with someone mature and clean like me. I'm probably making the best move of my life.
Pain sucks...anger---the rage that builds from whatever hurts us---I think it might be what keeps us going. It's what keeps us from crying all the time. Instead of a constant sadness there's a constant anger that's easier to suppress.
About two-ish years ago I transfered schools. It was probably the best thing I ever did. I noticed that when I am at school I'm a lot happier. I used to be so angry all the time. I was tense, I hated everyone and everything, and I got pissed at the drop of a hat. When I was at school i didn't feel that. i wasn't angry. I thought I felt that way because of the atmosphere at my old school. Now, I realize that those feelings came from my home life, rather than my school. All of the old feelings that had went away when i was at school are back. I am angry all the time. I thought that I was done with that part of myself, but I guess it won't go away until the cause for it goes away. I can't wait to go back to school, at least while I'm there i can temporarily relieve myself of this anger.