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The friend is okay, he's barely drinking. Then some bitch who is always drunk comes in and is going to call me strange. And the other fuck from another hall who hates me is going to be playing video games with them all.
And then I don't have to do ANYTHING. I'm done with them. Never have to room with them again. I thought I might be making the wrong move rooming with someone mature and clean like me. I'm probably making the best move of my life.
Pain sucks...anger---the rage that builds from whatever hurts us---I think it might be what keeps us going. It's what keeps us from crying all the time. Instead of a constant sadness there's a constant anger that's easier to suppress.
About two-ish years ago I transfered schools. It was probably the best thing I ever did. I noticed that when I am at school I'm a lot happier. I used to be so angry all the time. I was tense, I hated everyone and everything, and I got pissed at the drop of a hat. When I was at school i didn't feel that. i wasn't angry. I thought I felt that way because of the atmosphere at my old school. Now, I realize that those feelings came from my home life, rather than my school. All of the old feelings that had went away when i was at school are back. I am angry all the time. I thought that I was done with that part of myself, but I guess it won't go away until the cause for it goes away. I can't wait to go back to school, at least while I'm there i can temporarily relieve myself of this anger.